still remembering our boy

I can't believe it has been a full year since I even opened this page. Now its for the very same reason.

Chris and I spent a quiet day today doing nothing in particular. We set out in our car and drove where our hearts or distraction took us.

It's stupifying how often revolutions of others' lives crash into us as we continue to nagivate our own emotions 2 years later. Try as I might, there are still baby showers at work and random questions from others querying whether we have "just one"...uggh I hate that. I know they don't mean to injure me with the question, it just irks me that I feel compelled to answer in some stupid artifical way as opposed to what I'd really like to say. So on we go.

We're doing ok. We have our moments. My moments catch me when I least expect it, reducing me to the emotional stability of a 4 year old, while Chris continues to try and squash it down to appear strong for me. I believe our anger is gone and we speak of him fondly.